Typing. Reading. Calling. Emailing. Smiling. Everything is a pretend.
Not busy and bored.
And I’m thinking again of the thought that is recurring. Can’t seem to get this off my head. I’m so tired of being bothered by it when the other person doesn’t even care at all.
I’m trying to act like the usual, I’m quite good at it, really. But when it gets dark and I try to make myself fall asleep, the thought visits me again. I don’t know how long will this be. But if I would and if someone would, I’ll have it end right now. 😦